Month: January 2005

My wife the sportsfan

Maybe this should remain a secret, but my wife is the reason I watch football today … Specifically The Philadelphia Eagles … When we first started getting together, it was the World Series … I remember the pitcher’s name, Orel Herschieser, but I have no idea how to spell his name nor do I feel like looking it up … That was baseball, but after she got me watching this football thing, I really did get into it … I have been watching the Eagles everytime possible since 1992 or so … I went through Kotite, Ryan, Rhodes .. was there others in there? Gang Green and Randal Cunningham … Great games to watch, and serious let downs … Watching the McNabb/Reid Eagles has been awesome … So much drama in their beginnings and the injuries along the way … When the star quarterback went down, everyone thought it was all over, but the team came together and won … 2nd string QB goes down, and the 3rd stringer won games … Incredible … and 3 seasons straight I was let down one game before the Superbowl.

This year on Sunday, January 23rd with about 4 minutes left in the game, I cried. When Chad Lewis made that touchdown, I knew it, I knew it for absotively sure, the Eagles are going to the Superbowl this year! My wife cried … the camera panned, and there were many more people crying … Such a weight lifted on the entire city, the fans, the team … The Eagles are going to the Superbowl! Inasmuch as everyone “knew” they were going to win, I think there were many people that felt as I did, that you needed a clock that read 4 minutes and an unattainable score for the other team to overcome before you actually believed it … Then they present the trophy and there is Donovan McNabb asked to hold the trophy over his head by Terry Bradshaw, and I don’t care what Donovan said in the press conference, you saw it on his face as he raised that trophy … He almost lost it … He had been waiting for that moment for years, and then as the coverage goes on, you hear that the players have been waiting for that moment most of their lives, since they were little kids … People of so many age groups, of so many diverse backgrounds, social status and wealth all could appreciate this happening on the same level. The Eagles are going to the Superbowl this year, and we’re damn friggin happy about it. For the feeling of supporting your local sports team, there is nothing like it … For the “fair weather fans”, they may get caught up in the hype and think it strange the people who become emotionally involved … But we’re the fans that watched all the games all these seasons and who’ve seen the bad calls, the injuries … everything it took to get to where we are now … It’s been a huge emotional ride …

Oh, but back to my wife … She has been the only one to point out someone who isn’t so happy this year … Someone who has gone to the conference championship game 4 years straight and lost. Duece Staley … So far there’s been no mention of this, at least in any coverage I’ve seen … Karma? While most Eagles fans said they didn’t care whether the Eagles won or lost the Superbowl, they would just be happy to get there, I think that sentiment has changed … We want it all!

UPDATE: My wife informs me that it was about 1989 that we started watching the Eagles together … Buddy Ryan was the coach, and Randal Cunningham was the QB … Then Rich Kotite and Ray Rhodes … We even went to Engine 46 Steakhouse on one of our anniversaries because Ray Rhodes and Merril Reese broadcasted the Monday night coaches show from there. When they were done my wife asked Coach Rhodes if she could see his Superbowl ring. He showed it, and then moved on …

Worth it?

A power outage lasting about six seconds screwed me today (well, yesterday) … It makes me think again about having a solution for this, and then thinking of the cost of not only acquiring this solution but providing it … Then maintaining it … Of course what I speak of is a UPS solution … I believe it would be thousands of dollars to have something that would keep these boxes running for a sustained length of time … In the case of the six second power outage, it certainly makes sense, but what if it were a half hour or an hour? To me it doesn’t seem cost effective in that I hadn’t had a power outage prior to October 10th last year for over a year … In fact, my one machine’s uptime was about four hundred seventy five days, and that was a machine installed way after the prior power outage … So October 10th to January 24th is a substantially shorter period of time … Will another one happen soon, or will another one happen in five hundred days? If at all? … So does it make sense for me to make this investment for the people that pay bottom dollar to host web sites to not be down for a little bit whenever the power goes out? Is anything so mission critical that there can be no interruption of service? For me, no. I don’t consider the availability of the Internet a huge priority in my life … This is not to downplay my enthusiasm for having a reliable connection though … In other words, should it be understandable the result of such an occurrence? … and the people that freak because they get an email fifteen minutes later than they should have should just go pound sand? I mean I guess if you were paying a substantial amount of money for that availability it would make sense, but I charge peanuts in comparison for like companies that provide all the bells and whistles … Some may disagree, but there are levels in which most people come into something … Where some may pay $5 for something, they have other people paying $50 for the exact same thing … In my case, this isn’t the case … So, I have to incur the costs and suck it up when people don’t pay when I expect they should, etc … I foot the bill all the time, and I do nothing but play “catch up” and most of the time, the people I let go simply screw me … I don’t let this get me, I guess if I did I would go crazy … But being that it’s more of a hobbyist mentality working with the machines and operating systems, I accept these losses however much they hurt me financially … I do expect when I am through my learning and experience process (which is obviously taking a long time) that I will eventually have all of these things automated in that I will simply let everything happen … I will open it wide up and expect nothing but revenue … Then I will upgrade the datacenter, upgrade the connection, upgrade the environment and eventually upgrade my status to “well off” … That would be a good thing, but for now, I sit and wonder if the money I feel I shouldn’t put out, or that I am saving by not providing a solution will do nothing but stifle my forward progress … I mean, if people become dissatisfied as a result of a power outage and deem it unacceptable, then they will go somewhere else … Then I don’t have the volume neccesary to move forward … I sincerely hope that the way I have been doing things warrants the understandability … I am open to the people that utilize this service (whether they choose to pass this information on is in some cases in their hands) … and I also feel that my innovation in the way that I accomplish things is far superior to some better known ISPs out there … Or, web hosting providers I guess I should say … I also try to be very detailed when asked about a certain situation by people … I think I may be becoming a little more vague on my hosting site, but still truthful … Those that know about this site sometimes get way more information than they bargained for … If it helps, great … If it hurts, I would hope people would tell me why …

Coming along …

If you were curious as to the progress on the FreeBSD desktops, I took a couple screen shots so you could see what they look like. My resolution is set to 1280×1024, but I shrunk the captures down to 1024. KDE screen shot. Gnome screen shot. I tried to load the same applications and lay them out about the same way … I loaded (compiled from source) the Xmms multimedia player … For me it’s more fun to watch the music at the same time sometimes … I was also developing a new page I was creating for myself that’s linked on the right over there call the “project testing” page … Just where I’ll throw things that I play with sometimes … I have found that I have worked on things and then totally forget where I got them or how I came about developing them … Maybe if I keep breadcrumbs around it will help me as well as help others … and you can see a couple directories listed there in the midnight commander … the ttf directory is where I copied over some fonts from my Windows machine so that I had some of the fonts that I am used to seeing while browsing web pages … The FreeBSD handbook explained how to install them … Seems the window managers have programs/applets to do that too, but I did it from scratch … Anyway … that’s about it for the update … I just had a birthday, and it’s snowing outside … It’s about 7.5 hours before the Philadelphia Eagles begin to kick the Atlanta Falcons’ collective asses …

Much progress …

Well, I have gotten the screen to look decent on the FreeBSD system … Seems that using the proper drivers for the video card was the reason that I was locked into 75Hz … I think it’s a feature of the latest version of xorg … It has the ability to autodetect the settings of the monitor and video card … Like I said, I have a cheap monitor … I think a CompUSA special … It’s an Envision … It also detected that it’s a EN-910e … It also found the video card … VendorName “ATI Technologies Inc” BoardName “Radeon R100 QD [Radeon 7200]” BusID “PCI:1:0:0” … So, I took out the settings for the Radeon and I think it is defaulting to some sort of VGA setting, but even though it displays as being at 86Hz, it looks much the same as the MS Windows desktop at 60Hz … Well, better as Firefox and the resulting programs display the fonts better in my opinion …

I also got the sound working … Was actually quite painless, but I think it is something that requires a boot … I was just restarting the system, and when I lost the sound and saw some settings being still set, I figured I would try cold booting … That is what solved it and the sound is working perfectly now … I ripped a CD and have played the resulting MP3s … In fact they’re playing as I type this … I have Firefox and Thunderbird working … I have installed the gnome-fifth-toe, and I’ll get to installing some others soon … As it sits, I could use this desktop exclusively except for playing Counter-Strike and creating graphics for the paper … More to come …

Still no relief …

Searching around the ‘net and reading various posts, FAQs and online manuals, I still have a flickery screen … No matter what I do, I no longer have an option to change the refresh rate in the desktop applications (KDE or gnome) … I can get them to run at 1280×1024 utilizing the full screen by using a “Modeline” in the xorg.conf, but the refresh rate now defaults to 85Hz … I doubt it’s actually doing this, but there is no option to change it regardless of the resolution … I think it’s about time to post somewhere with my trials and tribulations and see if there’s a guru out there that know the short and simple answer … I know it’s probably one of those questions that just sits there cause it probably happens a lot … If I don’t use the Modeline I get a 1600×1200 screen at 75Hz … If I select any other resolution, it just becomes smaller on the screen without using the whole screen … Bah! This is one of the reasons I was thinking about buying a FP LCD screen … No flicker … My iMac and 17″ laptop look fine … Oh, and I installed some TTF fonts so this web sites looks right using the Georgia font on the FreeBSD Firefox browser …

Success! … Sorta

Well, after much persistence, it’s a success … I enter this message from the newly installed gnome desktop system using the Firefox browser from the FreeBSD machine … There were little things here and there that needed to be tweaked throughout the upgrade script, but it was pretty friendly … It even upgraded the X server, but this is where I am going crazy … When I had KDE running, I was able to use its screen resolution utility to change the resolution and the refresh rate … I have a cheap monitor, so any refresh rate above 60Hz causes shake and flicker … It is defaulting to 1600×1200 so everything is very small … When I change it to 1280×1024 it uses the same resolution but puts the screen up and to the left … So it makes the desktop smaller, but simply leaves black space around it … I cannot even simply select 60Hz to stop the flicker … I only have 75Hz available to me … This is very frustrating, and I don’t feel like putting much more time into this today … I have to get some sleep before work tonight … At least I believe everything to be in sync now, and that’s a good thing … One thing that is notable, in every browser, there is no Flash plugin available … So going to the Octane site, not only can I not see the intro (which isn’t a big deal), I can’t navigate the site since its navigation is purely Flash with no text alternatives … So here is a decision … I think I might be able to install Linux compatibility and use the Flash plugin for Linux, or I could just switch to using a Linux distribution for a desktop … I think Fedora Core is pretty snazzy … The thing I wanted to avoid was having to know more than one method for acquiring source files and installing them … Fedora uses the Red Hat Package Manager (RPMs) … I much prefer FreeBSD’s ports collection and ease of installation … Same goes for the package manager … Either that, or simply not navigate sites that use proprietary Flash … I think I would prefer the latter …

Compiling on FreeBSD

So I decided with my recent praise of Eric Raymond’s writings and my praise of FreeBSD that I ought to submerge myself more into using the operating system as a desktop … All machines don’t have a GUI installed, and I figured the AMD Sempron that I recently assembled would be a good machine to run this sort of environment on … I decided I would go with the Gnome desktop since that was what Brian Behlendorf said that he preferred … So I do a refresh of the ports tree to get all the latest and greatest ports and switch to the /usr/ports/x11/gnome2 directory and give it the ol’ make install clean … Well wouldn’t you know it, it failed? So then I tried from packages; pkg_add -r gnome2 and that seemed to work, but it didn’t … So what to do?

I then decided gnome sucked … What did Brian know anyway? and installed KDE from ports … Maybe I would have better luck there? Well, yes, after about 12 hours of compiling! I started it a little after 6pm last night, and it didn’t finish until around 7am the next morning … I don’t know exactly when, but that was when I woke up from my cat nap … There was a nice prompt sitting there indicating that we had finished …

I had been reading Eric Raymond’s online version of The Art of Unix Programming off and on during the compile … reading makes me tired … Eric also has a great text called How to Become a Hacker … Which reminded me of the Halloween Micro$oft Documents exposed to him and his making them public, and the reasons which OSI thought should remain on Eric’s own web site here … So yes, much compile time allowed for much more research into Unix Wars and the origins of computing as we know it today … I am still angry that I was playing with mainframes at the time … One of the things they mention in the Revolution OS movie is the ability to have a system like the one you work on at work, at home … I did have that, I was the only one to own a 80386 at the time and I was writing C programs on it … Thing is, it was a DOS environment, but I know now that it could have been a Unix environment … I could have learned all of this stuff much sooner … I am now playing catch up … Then again, I certainly have a much better product to work with now than I would have back then … I should also mention that HBO’s movie Pirates of the Silicon Valley influenced me as well …

So anyway, then came the latest X server from X.org … I fired it up and lo and behold I now had a KDE environment … I suited to taste and then decided I would install Firefox … 30 megs of source there and took about 30-45 minutes to compile … But there were inconsistencies … I had seen this in the gnome-session startup as well … So, something got screwed up when I went from trying to install gnome from ports and then from packages … dependent versions were out of synch, and this just wreaked havoc on the other programs that needed these libraries … So, I decided I should probably fix this, especially if I wanted to run Firefox … So, the gnome page over at FreeBSD had mentioned something about a gnome_update.sh script that would upgrade gnome properly … I got hold of that and have been playing with it ever since … Having it fail a couple times only to fix why it failed and fire it up again … It’s a very powerful script, of that there is no doubt … Finally getting through all the dependencies and having the script get through its first 3 stages, we are now on:

Stage 4 of 5: Rebuilding all GNOME applications, and everything that relies upon them. (The Big Update)
Note: this will take a LONG time (a bit longer than it took to build it all the first time …). If you’ve been planning a day trip, now would be a great time to take it.

So I think we’re in for another 12 hour compile? I think we’ve learned a valuable lesson here … Install it from the CD when you install FreeBSD, it’s much faster … Although, I could have blown away the machine and done that, I wouldn’t have the latest and greatest from ports, and I would have had to upgrade it eventually anyhow …

Incidentally, these compiles are running on the same machine that this site sits on running Apache … I have noticed no slow down in this site’s performance as a result of this machine compiling the crap out of these two huge applications … FreeBSD is the poop …

P25-S526 PN: PSP20U-5091HV

That’s the model/number of my Toshiba laptop … I just spent a bunch of useless time Googling for a problem I have been having … Didn’t find a resolution … Oh well … The problem is, the screen saving features sometimes result in the machine becoming unusable … The screen saver starts after 10 minutes … Then the screen shuts off after 20 minutes … The machine still works and everything … It is running, etc … but when I move the mouse (run my finger over the touchpad) or strike a key, the screen does not turn on … This isn’t all the time either, this is intermittent … What I used to do was hold down the power button, but I found closing the lid was better … When you close the lid it “hibernates” so all I need do is wait for the hibernate, power it back on and resume … It’s a hassle, but it works … I just changed the power off of the monitor to an hour … I figure if I leave the laptop that long, it ought to shut the monitor off anyway … So much for Google …