Month: September 2003

Have been sick all this week and have got nothing done at all … Just spent some time going through email and forums … a ton of stuff … have to keep at this stuff every day …

Haven’t updated in a while … I’ve been pretty busy I guess … many changes happening … The major thing is that Weekend at Bernie’s is breaking up. Therefor, I no longer have a job doing sound for bands … I don’t really know yet what sort of ways this will impact me … There have been some other offers and suggestions of what I should do, but I’m not entirely sure which way to go …

A new version of Counter-Strike and the HLDS dedicated server came out, so I have spent way too much time installing and configuring that … Of course, to test things that have changed, I go into the game and waste way too much time playing the game … It’s easy to get lost in the game itself as well as the company you keep with people from all over the country …

The web business is a big troubling as of late … Everybody wants something for nothing, and while I would agree with that myself, I have a hard time being the provider that demands a payment for services … There are so many different levels of what I feel are worthy of my fees, and then there are those that could hands down outweigh me simply due to the network they’re on. I mean face it, I have a T1 going into my house … What can I expect to demand from others coming into this blindly? While *I* know that I have a better uptime than hosting I’ve bought in the past, it’s the catch phrases that I don’t peddle … With all the machines and all the time I have invested in what I am doing, I have to re-evaluate the direction I take the hosting on, and in the process try not to lose anything I’ve established thus far … What makes this difficult that no matter what someone else may have to offer, I have to realize what I myself actually do offer, and not undersell myself … While some people may not agree with this, I guess at some point there has to be a line drawn … and it has to be clear and fair … To me, and to ‘them’ … *sigh*

Received my first payment from PayPal … Turns out I had to upgrade my PayPal account to receive the payment … It was because the payment was from a credit card … The regular account you can receive payments for free, but if the person pays with a credit card, you have to upgrade to a Premier account so that you basically authorize PayPal to take a percentage of the transaction … The payment I got was $30.00 and PayPal charged me $1.17 to process the payment … 2.9% + 30¢ … So I got $28.83 … I guess that isn’t bad … So a $100 payment would net $96.80 … $2.90 + .30 = 3.20 … I guess it’s worth it for the convenience … Now the question, do I convert this PayPal account to a business account and use it for ICUHost.Net? Hmmm …

Almost everything I can think of in my life, it always seems like there’s some sort of give and take that it’s almost impossible to keep anyone satisfied. I think I give a lot, but then there are those that seem to think I take a lot … I don’t necessarily see this …. Then sometimes my wife gives me hell because she feels I do more for others than I do for her … Then the others that she seems to think I do more for don’t think I do enough … Am I being vague? Well, in some respects I have to be, because this relates to so many different mediums as I am involved in many different things … Inasmuch as I feel that I do what I can for people, it just always seems like it isn’t enough, and I personally think it’s more than enough within reason … At some point, I think there needs to be a line drawn, and then when that line is drawn, the people you were doing so much for feel like it’s a slap in their face …